They said I was obdurate, I maligned god. Actually there was no maligning, I just ignored god, because I never connected with the god sitting inside religious places, within walls.
Being a libertarian, I often became frustrated at places where I felt that my mind was caged, my mind was quick in sensing the irreverence of the society. I became the victim of ostracism, I knew somehow that those people were being fallacious, but I didn\’t had any proof. My belief was still extant, what is observed in my life was much more important to me than illogical beliefs of the society.
Their attempts to enervate me went in vain. They thought my infidelity towards the materialistic god will lead me to my death, this thought came with an elegy playing somewhere in the back of my head. They were all standing in the center of the village, which was on the boundary of a huge river.
All the planning was ready, I was about to be dispelled. My contentiousness was about to be rewarded. And then things started happening suddenly, wind started running on the surface of already flowing leaves, the sand from the ground flew in disagreement. The world which never liked to be in orderly form was finally showing its true character, its randomness, which actually was beautiful.
We ignorant humans never comprehended it earlier, but it was quite evident now. In the later moments, the whole river came to us, with its arms spread. When others sensed death, I sensed love. Everyone was running here and there, but who were they in front of that majestic nature. The river swallowed everything around, the people cried for help from god, no reply came.
The little doubt which was there from a long time finally became bigger and turned itself to truth. They were sinking with their gods, death was awaiting them. I was just walking on the waves of that mighty river, the faith was so immense that I knew I will be alive, the faith was not in god, it was in myself, the nature and life. I walked on that water, while others were drowning in front of me.
When you have fear, you have doubts, when you have faith, you have assurance. A faith with a doubt is the most dangerous thing, faith should not be blind, it comes from understanding and observation, not from illogical beliefs.
I capitulated myself to the surroundings, I didn’t had any other choice, I trusted in my destiny. If you believe in something then you should not have fear, because fear originates from incredulity.
If you don’t believe in god then why there is fear?
And if you do believe in god then why there is fear?
Most of us do believe in God, but many of us lack absolute faith. I remember a story about the villagers gathering to pray for rain….. and only one boy came with an umbrella.
When there is faith there should be no place for doubt or fear …… ideally !!
Exactly half faith Is really dangerous.
Thank you so much for your comment..
Keep writing..
Shreyans
A thought to reflect on! I am inclined towards agnosticism and so I can’t comment on whether a God exists or not because it’s a difficult and long debate for me. But whether God and faith can coexist is a question worth pondering on!
I am an agnostic theist too…but when i think like a theist or an atheist, I come upon these questions. And it is I think the main reason which made me think..
Thank you for reading aish….
Shreyans
what a naked truth you have raised here! Many of us don’t believe in God but afraid of Him. It’s like that we hate to be a theist and in other hand, we have not enough courage to be an atheist. This is the worst kind of nature. The picture you’ve depicted here is well enough to motivate one to choose any of the ideology, at least. Great work.
Thank you so much for your kind words. I hope more people think like you. Waiting for your next blogs.
Shreyans
It’s my pleasure.
I think that if people are not sure of either side then they should accept it..they should proudly say that they are agnostic…
Another deep write from you, Sheryans. I am always impressed when I get to stop here and read some of your works 🙂
You touched on a sensitive subject here – one of God and faith. The scene you describe of the river, the others and yourself carries a strong message and ties in nicely with the ending of your post. Sometimes when we follow a faith, we get so used to the values and norms associated with it, and when something out of the ordinary happens, we feel out of control and so lose control of ourselves. But that’s not to say faith does not have its place in society – faith can make us stay humble.
I’m not one for believing in God, but I do believe that whatever will be, will be 🙂
You stand correct, but one small mention, true faith is different from what we think of faith in real. Our faith is most of the times filled with doubts.
And thank you for keep coming here and reading my work, it makes my writing worth something. Be well Mabel…
Amazing! I’d written in my bio :
“I am not a rule breaker, but I think rules which were once made for convenience are now being so blindly and often religiously followed that they’ve become more than a tad bit inconvenient. I don’t think I’m an atheist. I believe in God. I am just starting to lose faith in religion. Thank you, radicalism.”
This is the perfect post to go alongside that!
Thank you so much for visiting…hope more people understand what you said..
Keep writing..
Shreyans